Living with Depression

As I type this it is a day after Thanksgiving holiday November 26, 2010 and it took so much out of me just to hang in there to spend a Thanksgiving holiday alone in my new apartment.
I have depression.
I also have PTSD from years of:
Neglect
Physical abuse
Emotional abuse
Mental abuse
All of the above have been endured both in my childhood,teen years,and the majority of my adult life.
On top of that I have a Mother who has severe depression and seems to stay depressed most of the time.
She is married to a man who also deals with depression,PTSD,plus Vietnam War issues.
I live alone & I have no friends.
It's really hard living this way. 
I have tried to reach out to people,however people just don't want to hear that your going through a rough time due to the fact that they have their own stuff going on.
Well I need to reach out.  What else can I do?
I do the best that I can.
My own Mother is basically impotent to help me due to her own mental illness.
My Father is deceased.
Although I have siblings we all come from different Mothers.
And I can assure you the majority of those siblings have less a less than stellar morale compass that guides them so I have to stay a good distance from them.  They're basically users thats how that is.
It's just one of those things I guess.
This year has just been terrible for me.
My Facebook friend has dumped me.  So I don't have her to depend on.
Three months ago while riding public transportation to get out to a Tae Kwon Do class I was  the target of a verbal hate crime.
A woman on the bus that apparently was mentally ill started acting real psycho then proceeds to vent hatefully on me calling me Nigger so many times that I lost count,she also called me:
A whore and threatened to stab me with a knife.
Then I got out of a Tae Kwon Do contract but not before the Bitch of a instructor who was having an affair with a student just verbally did all she could to insult & put me down.
Talk about kicking a woman when she is down.
This woman verbally used her steel toed boots to do it.
So I haven't had the best of year this year.
I need the love & support.
But I seem to be all on my own
I reach out to you to support me.
I am trying so hard but I feel all alone in this world
I'm African American,Gay,and lonely.